Sunday, December 7, 2014

Writing...writing...writing? (Week Four of Poetry)

I've written a few poems over the last two weeks. It's been such a relief to write poems, and other writings.  I've written three big poems that I have stuck out to me since I've wrote them.

One of them is called 'That Goddamn Saviour Complex', which I don't swear in my writing often, and only the title has swear. I actually based it off Big Hero 6, not gonna lie. A Saviour Complex (I did a lot of researched for this poem) is basically, the need to be a hero, and the need to save people. I wrote from the person opposite from this person, the one who stiches them up after they 'save' other people. They were upset because they are always fixing the person up, and they are just reopening wounds that they just fixed up. I showed it to a few of my good friends, and they all loved it, they told me it was really bittersweet. I did write some of a companion piece, based on the 'saviour's' point of view. I have to work on that more.

Another one I wrote was called 'Five Years Old Once Again', which was my 1 A.M, no sleep induced, I need sleep now, poem of the week. I think by the title you can tell what it is about, but I will go into detail. I was annoyed at how the world wanted teenagers to be, the 'High School Experience', getting high, drinking, and all that lovely stuff. I was ranting about how I wanted to be five years old , where I didn't know what this stuff was, and I was overflowing with imagination, and love for this world, where I wasn't judged for still being a little kid at heart. There are somethings about this experience that I wish I wasn't judged for not doing.

The last one that I know I will be putting in the book, is called 'I am Beautiful'. This one is very important to me because as a teenage girl living in a world with photoshopped models, being told to be as skinny as possible, don't do this, don't do that, no one will love you if you do what you want. Well, I spent my friday night eating pizza, scrolling through tumblr, then dancing around my room in my fancy dresses, winged eyeliner, and blood-red lipstick to Taylor Swift, so fight me. I wrote it, saying that I am beautiful, even though I was taught by society that I am not, and I was saying I am beautiful, even though I have freckles, and red hair, and all this stuff that a lot of people might not say is beautiful, but I have taught myself that I am beautiful, and they don't get a say in who I am, not anymore.

I also decided that I would end my blog posts with poems, that I am still deciding on putting in the book, so that you wouldn't want to get the book because I've already shown you the contents of the dang book, so this is a poem called 'Happy Garden'. (Not my best, but still one of my favorites)

I will plant this memory in my happy garden,
And I will watch it grow when I am upset, worried, or angry,
I will water it with happy thoughts,
and I will whisper it words of sunshine,
I will plant it in my happy garden,
And I will let it grow,
Until my happy garden is full of wonderful thoughts, and memories.  

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Week Two of Poetry

I've been writing. Not a lot, but enough that I have a few poems to pick and choose from. It's hard, so hard. Poems usually come easy to me, but with the writer's block, it's been harder and harder to write.

This past week has been filled with tiny moments to write poems with. But, it also has had moments to write stories, essay, and tiny bits of writing with. I have decided that this will be a book of my writing, and the title with be 'Letters to Autumn'. The title is from Autumn being my favorite season out of the four.

I've spent the weekend trying to write as many poems as I can, so far I have two. That's a lot, considering how much I've written in the past two months. I've been trying my hardest, listening to powerful music, and writing down any little sentence that comes to mind so I don't forget it.

The two poems have been named 'Love of a Fighter', I think you can guess what type of poem it is, and 'Shadows of The Past', which is about a life whose been reincarnated so many times, the soul is so used to being on earth that it's not fazed by the twists and turns that happen in life.

I have one that I wrote last sunday, it's about describing their best friend and explaining that while they are in love with them, it's not romantic love that they feel, it's platonic. To me, platonic love is way more special than romantic love, because platonic love is something that while easy to find, it's  hard to establish a true friendship with someone. It can sometimes take years to find a best friend, or it can take weeks to find someone who feel so close to that you just want to be near them, laugh with them, and just enjoy life with them. I called it 'You Must Be in Love'.

This has been an struggle, but so far, a few great writings have come out of it.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Book Of Poetry

So I decided to change my project. Again. I realized that this project is about what you are passionate about, and poetry/writing is always something I've been passionate about since I was young. So from a YouTube channel, to learning a ukulele, and now to writing a book of poetry.

I plan to take a few of my old poems and making them new. I've been having major writers block when it comes to writing in general recently. This will be a way to make sure that I keep writing and making sure that my writer's block does not come back to haunt me. 

I want to write a multitude of genres. Free verse, while being the hardest is my favorite, but I want to expand my poetry to haiku, sonnets, etc. It's important to me that people write different kinds of poetry to expand their ability to write. If you only write one kind of poetry you are not going to get better at it, you are simply going to keep writing similar things, and though, sometimes, that is a trademark of a writer/author, it is important that you be able to write different kinds of poetry to expand to a large audience as well.

Poetry is a very emotion based writing, and this is a definite way of putting myself out there. Most of my poems are filled with emotions that I have felt, or I know I will eventually feel. Sharing something you've written is terrifying. You don't know if people are going to love it or if they will criticize it to no end. It's very important that people who want to potentially publish books and their poetry, that they have to accept that criticism. This is a way for me to accept criticism early on in my potential career as an author.

I'm very excited about this project, and I'm just as excited about what poems will come out of this project.    

Sunday, October 26, 2014



 I'm attempting to learn the ukulele.

For a while, my 20 time was going to be a YouTube channel, but then I realized I would not be able to keep up with that schedule, so I decided to make use of the ukulele sitting in my bedroom.

Music has always been a pretty important thing to me, and now I will actually be able to play an instrument.

My goal is that by the end of this year I'll be able to play at least fifteen songs, hopefully more, but learning songs can take a lot of time.

My brother, Matt, who is my mentor for this project is extremely excited to be teaching me, because he has been bugging me about this for a while. So, I gave in.

I will post about the songs I am learning each week, how much of the song I know, and so on and so forth.